I keep waking up late
Monday August 26th 2024 I’m stuck again in the place where I sleep late and wake up late I don’t like to do this because I feel crappy when it’s the middle of the day and I’m just waking up I’ve noticed that my phone alarm doesn’t even seem to work on me anymore I remember that I used to put my phone Out Of Reach from my bed so that I would actually have to stand up to turn it off I
Remember this actually used to work because standing up gave me enough time to remember that that I don’t want to sleep in late tonight I’m putting my phone in a hard-to-reach space so that when I wake up I’ll actually have to think about what I’m doing when I’m frantically trying to turn my phone off I think this should give me enough time to really wake up remember why I want to wake up early in the first place because
The early morning time is a time where no one else is awake to distract me that way if I get distracted while trying to do work later in the day there’s not so much at stake because I already put put in some good work in the morning Tuesday August 27th I feel like I’m missing something on a more fundamental level that will fix my sleep schedule something that I was doing before but have forgotten somewhere along the way
Alongside having a designated spot for my phone when I slept so that I couldn’t so easily snooze I also had my water bottle full and my computer on sleep mode ready with the work I plan to do the next day I was also not eating so close to bed bedtime also not so much sugar before bed I was also not on some Andrew Tate SCH smegma mail routine where I only sleep for 90 minutes and work for 25 hours in a day I was
Actually giving myself more than 8 hours of time allocated for Sleep also no screen time about an hour or so before I closed my eyes I was also trying my best to set my circadian clock because that’s what Andrew huberman said to do Hamza as well and I trust their advice now it’s hard to say if any of this has any real direct correlation for the way I’ve been feeling now tired and lacking energy but one thing I know is that when
I was doing these practices actively before I was not always tired and I felt ready to attack the day after I’d gotten over that initial sleepiness right after hitting the alarm maybe the results I’m looking for like more energy won’t come with these practices maybe it’s my diet that’s the issue I’m working on that too but to be honest I was eating pretty similar before and it made no difference still I will take this into account and try to watch what
I eat my lack of energy could be a lack of willpower but willpower is I think a habit that is to be built not just something that you have and I am trying to work on that too through discipline practices and doing the hard work even when I don’t feel like it my lack of energy could be any number of things but I really do think that is because I don’t have a good set of systems in
Place to regulate my sleep anymore so now this is what I’ll try keep the phone far Out Of Reach just like last night have my water bottle filled up and my computer in sleep mode ready with whatever task I planned the night before I will go outside and get sun in my eyes for at least 5 minutes maybe 10 as for a nightly routine I want to make it so that I use the last hour before sleep to
Actually wind down instead of go from 100 to zero in an instant I will wind down by either reading Vagabond or the book of five rings both of which I have paper copies no phone or screens during this last hour I will have already done my hygiene and set up my computer for tomorrow before this last hour commences maybe I can also use this last hour to write down my daily reflections we’ll see I will also try not to eat anything
Especially anything sugary too close to bedtime as I do not want sugar or digestive action to keep my body awake I will go to bed at roughly the same time and plan to wake up at roughly the same time every morning giving myself more than 8 hours of allocated time in case I don’t fall asleep right away I know that this is a lot to do all at once but it is important to me that this be taken
Care of so I will be patient and give myself time to become accustomed to this routine even if it means slowly incorporating more and more of the practices one at a time as time passes one final thing I feel like kind of an idiot to say this but tonight I will not be sleeping my sleep schedule has gone off the rails in my opinion and I do not want to try to wake back up after only 2
Or 3 hours of sleep I would rather maintain some of my head space now and endure sleepiness then depend on the partial feeling of how I feel when I wake up again I woke up pretty late last morning so I think I’ll be okay and lucky for me I don’t really have anything to do except edit some videos and try to follow my daily routine tomorrow I hope everything goes all right and I’m excited to start sleeping
Well again Wednesday August 28th I’m not going to lie to you I stayed up all night last night and then fell asleep at the very end so then I woke up at lunchtime again my plan didn’t go as expected but one good thing did happen I didn’t get as much sleep even though I woke up at 12: because I fell asleep not too long before 12: so this means that I maybe will still be tired enough to
Sleep so this means that I maybe will still be tired enough to sleep at any earlyish time tonight even though this actually doesn’t matter because if I didn’t try to stay up late last night and just stayed on my schedule instead I still would have tried to sleep early tonight I have done pretty much every everything I plan to do for night preparation tonight the last I’ve eaten was maybe a couple hours ago it wasn’t anything too too sugary but maybe
A bit because it had some honey I have my water bottle filled already my computer is set with tomorrow’s task my alarm on my phone is set and out of sight now I am writing this and once I am done this I’ll read Vagabond and then I’ll try to sleep the only thing I kind of missed is that it’s not really that early to sleep not as early as I would have liked it’s like 11:00 p.m. right
Now I want to try to make my final hour be at like 900 p.m. and go until 10: p.m. which is when I’d fall asleep ideally instead tonight I’ll sleep at around 12 but this is still progress I think at least it’s not 3:00 a.m. or 6:00 a.m. or even 1:00 a.m. one final thing I wanted to say about today as well I’ve been thinking about my focus on this sleep routine goal hopefully my methods will just work anyway if I stick
To them but I wonder if I’m focused on the wrong things I watched a video today by Elisha long about prawn he was touching on the idea that when you make avoiding prawn your main goal it’s easier to fail because it’s always on your mind I actually made my own video a while ago following a similar principle in that video I mention a quote from Vagabond preoccupied with a single leaf and you’ll miss the tree preoccupied
With the tree and you’ll miss the entire Forest maybe I’m too fixated on fixing my sleep schedule just for the sake of fixing it maybe a more effective mindset will be to ask why I even want to wake up early if I need to wake up early like when I need to wake up early for school or my job it’s easier to do so then than it is on a morning when I have no plans to wake up at 6:00 a.m. four why would I
Wake up at 5 or 6:00 a.m. when I have nothing to do specifically tonight I’ll think about why and what I’ll be doing tomorrow morning probably that video I set up on my computer anyway calling in a night now be back tomorrow Thursday August 29th all right to be honest with you I didn’t sleep last night this was genuinely an odd thing to happen but I just didn’t fall asleep last night however now that the day is over and I
Didn’t sleep during the day I am now tired as balls I don’t really have much to say today I still followed my routine as best as I could meditated in the morning and now I’ll wind myself down just like I did last night the only thing I’m not doing tonight is keeping the computer on sleep mode I just wanted to have it off tonight but I don’t think that it’ll be that much of a deterrent in the morning also this morning I got
Out of bed even though I didn’t sleep uh out of bed around 700 a.m. which is the earliest I’ve been up in a while and and from about 7:30 to about 11:00 I worked on my videos and stuff so solid day I haven’t been able to give that much time to just YouTube focus in a while so it was good to be reminded what it feels like and that feeling is pretty cool anyway I’ll check in
Tomorrow see you P.S should I do this on the weekend too or just Monday to Friday I was thinking just Monday to Friday but why not just do the weekend too then post the video on Tuesday or Wednesday of the following week yeah that sounds good Friday August 30th I’mma Be honest with you I somehow managed to wake up late again I didn’t sleep all night and all day so I went to bed at 10:00 p.m.
Yesterday I was waiting for sleep literally all day trying to keep myself busy and then when I actually wanted to I couldn’t I just laid there all night sweaty and bored then the next day after I slept and I slept for a long time I slept for like 10 hours and I’ll be honest this made me kind of disappointed how could I still wake up late when I had more than enough sleep I felt bad earlier but tonight I
Feel like it kind of doesn’t matter because I still did good work today even if I did wake up late as long as the work got done I just feel like a day like today is kind of an outlier and waking up earlier would give me more days like today where I’m not distracted and can actually get into my work I watched a video by Elisha long and felt better because he reminded me in the video that as long as the dream is still
There then I haven’t lost even if I have an unproductive day here and there if I’m still trying every day to make progress no matter how big or small the efforts it means I haven’t given up yet and I’m on the right path one day won’t make or break my entire life just keep trying don’t give in Saturday August 31st today is the last day of August and I’ll have to go back to school in a
Couple days last night I set an alarm for 8:30 instead of my usual goal of 5:30 6 or 6:30 it seemed to make things a bit more manageable a lot more manageable actually maybe I’m just not the kind of person that wakes up at 5:30 maybe I’m more of an 8:30 guy because I didn’t have a lot of resistance to get out of bed at 8:30 or 9:00 whenever it was when I wake up to a 5:30 a.m. alarm
And no reason to be up that early then I find myself snoozing until like 11:00 or 12 I watched a video today about how Bruce Wayne manages his time I swear I wasn’t trying to copy Batman when I started journaling like this the video was advocating for writing down and reflecting kind of like what I’ve been trying to do now one thing that stuck with me from that video was that he mentioned the usefulness of setting
Goals monthly goals and then setting up goals inside of these goals to make the bigger goals more manageable I think I’ll try to incorporate this in my life by defining the actual tasks I should be doing rather than leaving it to my whim I actually remember Hamza talking about this in a video I’ll set my actionable tasks the night before and maybe this will motivate me more to get out of bed because I know exactly what it is I need
To do I think overall this week was pretty productive I know that my focus more so for the week was my sleep but I think that was a a good way of going about this by focusing on more one thing I know maybe there will be multiple at the same time later on but I think to focus on my sleep and make that a priority was a good thing because then now I’m not like distracted with other
Ideas what if I did this what if I did that it’s just the one thing that I cared about this week really so yeah overall I think that you know I made some blunders throughout the week I think that’s going to be consistent forever I think there’s always going to be something wrong but I think that as long as I’m trying to upkeep my sleep trying to maintain a good routine then I think that I’m on the right path I think as
Long as I’m not completely giving up and just whatever I’ll stay up until 6:00 a.m. tonight watching anime as long as I’m not doing that then I think I’m okay if I go to sleep a little later sometimes if I wake up later sometimes whatever everybody does that it happens to everybody so yeah that’s this week complete take care just checking if the mic is still working after I dropped it on the ground